A New Land

I should be reading strategic plans. And answering emails. And consolidating all my to-do lists. But, instead, I'm taking a moment to reflect. What a crazy past month it has been. Ants in my sugar. New and improved bucket shower skills. Spanish everywhere. All day. Taxis for transport. Dates with short boys. Being in charge of a clinic. Uh, what?

I guess there's no life pause button, so I'm pausing just myself as life swirls on. So much newness. And yet, many things familiar. A reunion with a kindred spirit. What would I do without Yoritza and her joyful spirit? Baleadas in abundance. Still a favorite. Laughter with friends. Birthday cakes that lend themselves nicely to smeared icing fights.

God, thank you for this new adventure. Thank you for never changing, but allowing me to change. Be with me, here in Catacamas, in this country that I love. May your peace settle on Honduras. I pray for safety. I pray for wisdom. I pray for change.

The marks you make

Another drop of faith, please?

God, it's me again. I'm back-- looking for some extra faith. I am so blessed, and yet, still I question. Why can't I see the path ahead? What do you have in mind? Can ya please give me a drop or two more of faith? Hear my prayer. I ask for wisdom, for guidance, for courage. Give me the patience to accept things as they come slowly my way. Help me to hand over this new challenge to you, God. I don't wanna give it up, and yet-- you see all ahead. I see nothing. I pour my questions into your hand. Give me your strength. Amen.

Firsts

Although I'm typically quite stressed and overwhelmed by change, I feel like I'm navigating This New Life with greater resilience and optimism than usual. New house, new city, new roommate, new school, the works. Hit me all at once, baby! Cuz I think I might actually be ready this time. Yes, I'm missing my job. And my Loma Linda friends. And living with three amazing girls (C'mon, Michelle- you practically live there.) But, I'm adjusting. I'm doing more than alright.

I'm ready for this new adventure. I'm scared, yet excited. My God time is springing back to life. God, forgive me for my distance. My misguided focus. Reckless faith, that's what I'm reading... and that's what I'm looking for! God, I hope you've got my back on this one. I'm trying to trust You with a new faith, a new abandonment. Give me the courage to be reckless. I'm open. I'm ready. Let's do this.